Diary Entry # 32: Surprise!

As they say, killer cramps are not normal.

Normally during my period, I don’t feel anything except that I am tired. Unlike my girl friends, I don’t experience any pain or cramps or any uncomfortable issues during my 3-day monthly period. Early this year, I have noticed pain during my period especially during bowel movements. I have a higher tolerance with pain, but this one is different. It felt like something is stuck and my BM is forcing its way out. I just ignored it at first thinking it was nothing. As months passes by, it continues to occur every period.

It was really painful that whatever it is I am doing forces me stop. It usually occurs on my first and second day of my period during my bowel movement. While sitting my throne in the toilet and let the bowel flow, I sometime clench my hands on the walls feeling the pain while those shits' coming out. The pain sometimes makes me cry while on the toilet.

So I finally decided to visit my Gyne and have my pelvic checked.  Everything else is normal, no mass or any enlargements found except that I have a retroverted uterus. She mentioned endometriosis. Then I started to get worried. After explaining a bit about the condition, what makes me worried more is when she advised to get pregnant sooner as there will be a possibility of infertility if pregnancy is delayed.

I am 27, and have a boyfriend who love kids a lot. We have plans already, when, marriage, kids. When I told him about it, we we’re both shocked as we are still not ready to have a kid on our own. Financially, we are not yet stable and still trying to enjoy our salary for ourselves-clothes, travels, gadgets and saving only a bit for the future. Mentally, our mind is not yet set for marriage. We have not expected this to happen and we are both stunned as if everything will have to be fast forward.

Life is full of surprises they say. Whatever will come on our lives, I hope it’s the better part.